Dear God

I am the child you knew

Before I was formed in the womb

Yet I cast my burdens on You

While overflowing my cup

With worry and doubt

You prepared a table for me

In front of my enemies

But I refused to eat

Only watched as my own adversary

You told me to be still

While You fought my battles

But I ran from peace

Clinging to the destruction

You tried saving me from

You gave me directions

To enter the narrow gate

That only few will find

Yet I gathered with the masses

As we traveled a broad path

Away from Your salvation

I was baptized in Your waters

Overtaken by the Holy Spirit

Uttering in tongues only You speak

But still I fled from Your Word

Finding comfort in the belly of the beast

In the darkness I cursed Your name

When my riches disappeared

Unable to accept the

Adversity that accompanies

Perseverance and hope

When all others turned away

You kept Your eye on me

Reminding me of

Your everlasting love

You rebuilt me

I reached out to touch the

Hem of Your garment

I put all my faith in You and

You blessed me with

Restored joy of Your salvation

You gave me mercy I didn’t earn

You purged me with hyssop

To create in me a clean heart

Once dirtied with sins

I knowingly committed

I gained wisdom by

Hiding Your Word in my heart

To make sure everything I do

Flows from Your teachings

Instead of my own understanding

I was undeserving of

Your presence in my life

But with a single command

You helped me walk

When I was paralyzed with defiance

I learned that to save my life

I must lose it

For blessings and honor

And glory and power

Be to You forever and ever

I refuse to wait until

Seals begin to open

To shout my praises

From the mountaintop

I will no longer be silent

About Your goodness and mercy

With my mouth I proclaim

You are God

Worthy to be praised

I recount all the crooked paths

You made straight

Tears forming in my eyes

As I fall to my knees at Your altar

I call on Your name

Dear God

Thank You